I know some of you people out there had read my perverse post and some even knew whose that person. But please i beg you guys stop reminding me and stop talking bout that. Ever since that day i couldn't concentrate on stuff and till now i'm still thinking of it, i just couldn't let things go, i couldn't control my emotion and i really need some time out. Please help me, i really don't know what to do...

4 years ago i met this girl, immediately i feel in love and hoping that 1 day she could be mine. I tried my very best to get near to her and hoping that i could touched her, i tried my very best and a year or 2 after that i ask her a question. Without hesitation i was rejected straight, the reason being is that she needs time and wanted to complete her national exams first then reconsider again. So i told her" No matter what the outcome is, i'm still willing to wait for answer 1 day after the exams had finished" I tried many ways to get near to her and once i regretted that i should have gone up to NA when i was Sec1. But i'm willing to fight for what i really wanna achieve, many people told me to give up until 1 day i cannot wait any longer. I choose another person instead, everyone told me that i made the wrong move. I forget about my code of conduct and thinking that this time round i really can find 1 person that suits me, but during those days i still couldn't let go off you thinking that i really shouldn't give up. A year after that she's gonna graduate in about a few months time, i quickly did my best and took this very last chance to did what i think is right. Until last night, i gambled my luck and hoping that there would eventually be a miricale. Yet again i was rejected. It was hard to build up a relationship for during those 4 years, but it was easy to demoralize a person's feeling with an answer straight. I told myself, in order to succeed there must not be any fear blocking your way. Therefore i do not believe in fear at all, until last night i finally know whats the definition behind it all along. 4 years of hard work and yet once again i failed, thinking that she would accept me this time round. Like what people always say "Love can't be force" but whats the meaning behind it all along? I couldn't sleep all night yesterday and thinking back through of what she said on the phone rapidly and now i'm sick. I can give up my diving course, but i just couldn't give up the relationship. Usually people get tired after doing something rigorous, but i'm tired of waiting for her answer...

Wow haven been blogging for quite sometime already, guess i shall start posting again. Haha, but i won't be blogging again next week already unless weekend. Wanna know why? Just read...
Today
Woke up, smsed Isaac and Ong Ting bout my shirt. After that look after my brother till my father come back. Then bathed and went to ah ma house to used computer, i thought that Prsanth they all will be watching movie but in the end never. So used computer all the way and took a nap, woke up, ate my dinner and blogging again now. Haven even packed my stuff yet and the day is getting nearer and nearer. Oh yeah i haven say yet, the reason why i only get to blog on weekends for the next 2-3 weeks is because i'm booking in for the 32nd Basic Diver Course. Really hope that i can finished the course safely and come back in 1 peace, if i really pass the course it would be a total shock and achievement for me because i'm not a very good swimmer at all. Some say fun but i still got that feeling that something wrong will happened to me, well whatever it is i'm well prepared and ready to face any obstacles in my way to graduation. Pray hard for me people!
Counting down to 2 more days, HOOYAA~
Actions can proof louder then words
But to me my actions and words can proof my love


Endurance All The Way!!!

Okay I know i have not been posting for quite sometime already because people are starting to tagged at my tag box and interrupting my MSN asking me to blog, so i shall blog about today only, okay?
Today
Woke up at 4am and starting running at 5 all the way till 7.30am and then i just realized that there's training today, so ran home get my stuff and took bus to school. I reached school on time and later did i know that the door was broken and we are lock outside the door while the rest of the people are already sitting on the floor, so from 7.45am we dragged till 8plus and started off with PT. Normally i can run a lot of rounds around the school but i have no idea why suddenly today i ran 5 and i'm dead. Need train more already man, getting old already. After that did many things today and this training was the longest training i had every since i was a Part A. Pretty cool, had drills today. Kind of fun la but boring, at noon we had games. Captain's ball is the only game we play every time. Still the same getting older already, i use to jump very high but now cannot tahan already. Kana sai! After that went to lock the door and went home, my mum was like shouting all over the place because she's not working today. She keep asking me to teach her how to transfer things from file to file. Super lame lor, i sleep she also want to disturb. At 5 i still sleeping she wake me up again, and now the reason why i'm blogging is because i'm helping her...
What the hell man, ok thats all people.
Wearing Air Tube in exactly 2 weeks


Endurance All The Way!!!